This book is the cause of my every ambition. What’s more important, it’s the book that made me believe I could do it.
The book I read previously (Running Like A Girl by Alexandra Heminsley) had me teetering on the brink of where I would go next with my running, but this book actually had me signing on the dotted line to complete the Great North Run 2021, fundraising for Diabetes UK. You can follow my journey at The Mid-life Crisis of a Sugar Rush Runner (https://themidlifecrisisofasugarrushrunner.wordpress.com)
The Great North Run was the legendary and awe-inspiring Lisa Jackson’s first race, too. The way she described the atmosphere made me want to taste it for myself. Perhaps I’ll give the naked run a miss though, I don’t think my poor boobs could handle that one!
Lisa described a wonderful childhood with parents who ran. She didn’t believe she had inherited that trait until she reached her thirties, but boy was she wrong. Lisa is now in the 100 marathon club and has taken part in ultra runs, too. She has come last in a few races, mainly due to getting lost or extending her support to struggling runners rather than a lack of ability. Though she manages to play down the machine that she very clearly is throughout the entire book and doesn’t come across as gloating about her mammoth running achievements…that is a skill in itself when you realise just how inspiring a woman she really is.
Lisa doesn’t go through the entire book talking simply about herself, though I’m certain she’d be able to fill several books about her varying experiences, but includes the many people she has met along the way and their experiences. The hurdles some of these people have overcome is enough to force you to dust off your trainers and go for a run, even if it’s a very slow run because Lisa professes to be just that….though I absolutely have my doubts on that point. The reason Lisa has managed to get to know so many people is because she embraces the social side of running. This is something which is of real interest to me, because of the time I’ve taken up running events are only just restarting and the fact I live in the arse end of nowhere and barely see a soul when I’m running outdoors!
If you are thinking about upping your game and entering events but there’s a niggling doubt lingering at the back of your mind, “I’m too slow.” “People will laugh at me.” “But, I’ll finish last…or not at all!” This book is for you. I swear by the end of it you won’t care if any of those things happen come race day because Lisa will talk you out of it!
Now, dust off your trainers and absolutely add this book to your arsenal of inspiration!
Sold by all good book retailers and also available in audiobook. I listened to the audiobook and found it engaging and superb, so much so I’m on my second listen of it!
If I was able to award this book a million stars, I absolutely would. It’s power and value should not be underestimated!
You may have noticed I have been ever absent on this blog space, you may not have, I don’t know. The fact of the matter is I’ve been anything but absent from blogging! I absolutely intend to keep going here, and I’ll use it to review the vast amount of running books I’ve read recently!
If you want to know what I’ve been up to, please head over to my weekly blog which has been up and running since mid-April and I haven’t missed a week yet! I have noted there’s diet, sports and diabetic people been following this blog because this became a space to write about the drastic changes I made to my lifestyle over the past year and so it only seemed right I would write about it someplace…whilst I’m reserving those talks for my new blog, The Mid-life Crisis of a Sugar Rush Runner, I’ll still be writing about what I’m reading here, and trust me, I have got through A LOT of books! Follow me here: https://themidlifecrisisofasugarrushrunner.wordpress.com
First up! Running Like a Girl by Alexandra Heminsley. Alex or ‘Hemmo’ as she is known sort of accidentally fell into running, a bit like myself. I read this book after I completed the NHS Couch to 5k programme and started training for an Easter 10k run that I did for Roy Castle’s Lung Cancer Foundation trust managing to raise £90 for them.
The book is written in an easy going conversational style which was thoroughly easy to read and enjoyable. I have seen a few reviews moaning there was too much about her story in the book and not enough tips and tricks. I absolutely disagree because I found both were plentiful between the pages.
I found the story of her London Marathon experience both touching and inspiring as she admits to bursting into tears during it due to the birth of her niece and the challenging time her sister went through prior to this with her husbands touch and go ill health.
About a week after finishing this book I witnessed a woman running past my very rural home and I swear to you, her breasts were just about slapping on her shoulders. My heart went out and I was torn between calling to tell her to read this book and consider the highly probable damage she is doing to her breast tissue or offering to e-mail her a discount code for Shock Absorber. Alas, she was rather quick and I’m not that brave and/or rude…after all, it’s her chest.
The practical advice offered by Heminsly is invaluable, at the time of reading I half thought I might run a marathon one day and I’ve definitely retained the vast majority of tips included for that particular slice of madness. I even commenced eyeliner testing and I’m please to say I’ve discovered some which will likely see me through! Yes, I am that mad…well, not really though, because if anyone snaps a photo of me sans makeup they won’t actually know who it is! LOL.
I also saw some reviews bemoaning this is a book for young people aspiring to run marathons and other races rather than just heading out for a jog. I’d also reverently disagree with that. This book goes some way to forcing a belief in yourself, allays any fears you may have and guides you into at least giving it a bash. Whilst the tips and tricks Heminsly serves up go someway to preparing you for race day as well, I thought it struck a nice balance.
If you want nothing to do with entering races whatsoever, then there are definitely titles out there for you without talking about that aspect of running, but I didn’t personally find them as enjoyable as this book, I will be reviewing them at a later date.
Admittedly, I did get an inkling of ‘holier than thou’ from the author at times and had to slap that notion out of myself because to go from nothing to running several races must invoke and extreme sense of pride that could come across as bragging. A new chapter would commence and that notion would soon be gone. Alex also discussed the difficulties she’s faced and went through some pretty rubbish experiences which will hopefully prepare you for your journey off the couch to your first marathon!
I listened to this title in audiobook and the narration was great if you prefer audio!
I award this book 4.5 stars and thank the author immensely for sharing her story.
The last year has seen so many changes in people’s lives. Drastic changes. Whilst some have been for the worst, mine have certainly been for the better. In February 2020, at my last endocrinology appointment…one which was meant to be followed up after six months (FML) my HBa1c was sitting at 86. I was a mess. The endo granted me access to Libre Freestyle, but with everything in the diabetes world I would have to wait until June. It always seems like, “You’re basically dying, you really need this kit. You can have it in four months.” I mean, imagine?
In April 2020, I hit a tragic realisation after laying on the sofa with my daughter, binging on Twillight movies and a packet of biscuits which almost cost me my life. I always have had a flair for being dramatic, but honestly, my ketones were at 8 and my respiratory system begun to shut down, meaning I struggled to take a breath. All my own fault and my denial almost killed me. Luckily, I injected a shit load of insulin, drank a fuck ton of water and my ketones dropped back to normal and saved me a trip to the last place on earth anyone wanted to go last April and even now…the hospital.
In June I finally got my eager hands on the Libre and what I saw was astonishing. I only had to look at a carb and my blood sugar would go off the scale. That’s when I started researching how to combat the post prandial spikes. In July I found a group on Facebook called Diabetes and the low carb life. It has been a godsend. It’s such a lovely group, filled with likeminded people and completely geared toward improving diabetic outcomes rather than anything else.
Sorry for the long winded intro, I’m getting to the point, I swear. Sarah, the group founder posted pictures of a fitness game she played called Nintendo RingFit played on a Switch. My son has a Switch and the game looked amazing. Getting hold of one was like trying to find rocking horse shit, but where there’s a will, there’s a way! I started playing it at the end of July 2020 and the results were out of this world. I felt amazing, sore, but a whole lot fitter and stronger.
As it was summer, I started walking the 5k circuit around my home. I’d do this to combat high blood sugar rather than taking an adjustment dose whenever I could and found the walk would lower me by approx. 3 mmol/L the same as what 1 unit of Novorapid is meant to do for me. I say meant, because Diabetes is a little twat and for me personally, things never seem to work the way they’re meant to. As summer drew to a close, I spotted a full sized treadmill in the garage, my boyfriend is basically Steptoe LOL! I ordered the bloody thing inside with the hope of being able to walk without freezing my tits off during the winter months.
At the beginning of September 2020 the diabetic nurse from my GP surgery called me and let me know my a1c had dropped from 86 to 58. Considering the short amount of time I’d had the libre, been low carbing and introduced exercise into the mix, I was incredibly happy with that result. I do believe it’s lower now, possibly 49 or 50.
I can’t recall where things changed, but Sarah started posting videos following running. My go to response was always ‘Well done. But, fuck that shit.’ Sometimes, ‘I only run if someone is chasing me.’ You get the picture. I was never going to be down with the running crowd.
Another member of the group, Donna, also posted her running results and to this day I’m in awe of her. It’s like, ‘When I grow up, I want to be like Donna!’
But, there was no way I was ever going to do it. No, just not for me.
I continued to watch Sarah’s videos, mainly because she’s so funny and inspirational as a person. In her, I saw something, a spark in the eyes on her sweaty, beet coloured face. I don’t know exactly what it was, but along with the Ninja Foodies, Lucy Locket Loves merchandise, waffle makers, RingFit and other shit the group forces you to buy…I wanted me some of that, only it was something which couldn’t be bought.
In December 2020 I made a reluctant decision to at least give Couch to 5k a bash having weighed up the benefits vs the risk. Lucy, how was there any risk? I hear you cry. Well, to be perfectly honest, when I was nineteen years old I had a tragic accident on a treadmill. At the time I was in the RAF and my accident resulted in the gym getting shut down, pending an investigation and likely whilst they cleaned the vast majority of my skin off the belt. Despite the fact I had lumps of flesh missing from the majority of the right side of my body, including my face, people found this extremely hysterical (including the duty doctor who was nigh on pissing herself laughing whilst spraying me with iodine) or were livid that I had singlehandedly taken their gym away from them due to my inability to tie my fucking shoelaces correctly.
This incident wasn’t the end of running for me in my younger years. In my early twenties, I had a boyfriend who was into running and I’d regularly roll out of bed on a Saturday or Sunday morning and run 10k in a organised event with basically zero training or effort and definitely without a treadmill in sight. The joy of being twenty-one, I guess. When we split I quickly gave up running.
Those were the risks. So, I considered the benefits. I do not hide that I smoke like a chimney and whilst my fear of catching COVID-19 and dying from it had somewhat diminished with the lowering of my a1c and overall improvement to my health, there’s always more effort to put in. Before you start, I know it doesn’t always work that way, but it certainly wouldn’t do me any harm. There’s plenty of literature to support how running improves heart and lung function as well as mental health.
The first six weeks of C25k were in all honesty, utter hell on earth. In order to prevent myself from talking myself out of carrying on with it, I’d signed up to complete a 50 mile challenge when I started C25k through Pacer, namely the Laugaveur trail. I mean, the medal glows in the freakin’ dark…I needed it. It took me six weeks to complete the 50 miles and win the medal. It was then everything fell into place, I’d been suffering with extreme pain in my calves and found a quick and simple stretch meaning it almost isn’t there any longer. This meant I was running the 5k inside the time given by the programme and everything about me began to crave the rush of endorphins running gives me.
I completed c25k at the beginning of February 2021. The day I finished, my boyfriend started. I wonder if he saw in my eyes the spark I once saw in Sarah’s? When I finished the Laugaveur challenge, I signed up to MedalMad and then to Virtual Fitness so I always have reasons to run and a medal/challenge to complete. Virtual Fitness also does Workout Wednesday which gives me a reason to carry on doing RingFit for an hour a week as well.
I can honestly say, hands down and undoubtedly at the age of 39 years old, I am the fittest and healthiest I have ever been. I even have abs for the first ever time, and I don’t even give a shit how vain I sound I am massively proud of them!
A few weeks ago someone asked me if I enjoyed running and my answer was honest, “No. But, I love finishing it.” It’s the truth.
My new found obsession with pushing myself further saw me sign up to another challenge the other day. Donna posted about the Easter virtual run for Roy Castle’s Lung Cancer Foundation in Diabetes and the low carb life. I clicked on the website and was frankly astonished with what I found there. I mean, do you know over 5,000 people in the UK are diagnosed with lung cancer annually that have NEVER smoked? Are you aware how many missed opportunities for a full recovery exist, because of the lack of awareness that lung cancer is not just a disease older smokers suffer from?
In 1997 my grandfather died of lung cancer, inevitably because of this, it is close to my heart. But, the discovery of the facts surrounding Lung Cancer astounded me. So, I’m trying to raise fifty pounds to help raise awareness and upping my game to an outdoor (less risky LOL) 10k run on Easter Sunday. I have sixteen pounds to go to reach my target, so I’d be incredibly grateful if you’d consider sponsoring me and supporting this cause. You can do so by clicking https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/ltkelly which will open in a new page, so you can continue to read what my actual point is LOL. If you’d like more information about the foundation, plus education on what to look out for, head here: https://roycastle.org
Aside from touting for sponsorship, the real message I’m trying to put out is that if you’re feeling down in the dumps, stuck in a rut, sick of everything, start working on you today. My journey has started out incredibly slowly, 20 minutes RingFit a few times a week, to walking 3 miles, to running 2, then 3…you get the picture. Start today, even if all you feel you can manage is a bimble around your garden. I promise you, you will feel better. DO IT FOR YOU!
Years ago my mother told me a story about how when I first watched the movie Watership Down I cried. Apparently, I told everyone it was because the sun was shining in my eyes.
I watched Dirty Dancing so many times the tape had to be replaced a few times, sometimes I would cry, others I wouldn’t. It remains the same to this day. This film is why I don’t suffer writers block often. I simply open YouTube and find the scene I need, watch it once or twice and I’m ready to rock and roll. If that doesn’t work I have a few other go to movie scenes as well, but you can’t expect me to give all my secrets away…
I grew up reading teen thrillers and romances, later discovering my love of Mills and Boon books and feeling every emotion of each of the characters.
Fast forward to an eighteen or nineteen year old me. I went to the cinema with four lads I worked with in the RAF to see The Green Mile. What a mistake. I’ll never forget the emotion building in me, until the lump in my throat was so thick I could no longer swallow the assault of tears. When the flood gates opened, against my will, there wasn’t a mere few tears trickling down my face. No. That would have been okay. I literally sat there shuddering and shaking as gut wrenching sobs filled the quiet room. I wanted to die of shame at the whole thing, it was so embarrassing.
It’s the truth to say that there have been many times in my life where emotions have gotten the better of me for longer periods than the length of a movie or book scene and oftentimes for no apparent reason. It’s the lowest of the low times I recall having to lock myself in cupboards at work so I could sob, let everything out that had been building for hours, just like when I watched The Green Mile but in the absence of John Coffey being led to his tragic demise. If I allowed these emotions to come out people would ask me what the hell was wrong with me and I wouldn’t have been able to provide a reason.
Many times from the age of twelve all the way into my thirties, I tumbled into the pits of utter despair and couldn’t bring myself to get out of bed for a week. Lying there on a spin cycle of tears and sleep inspired from the exhaustion of crying. In these times I’m not ashamed to admit I used prescription drugs and alcohol to get by, allowing anti-depressants to reset me. I put it that way because I have never used them as a long term solution to crippling depression. For me anti-depressants strip every emotion away…even joy and happiness and for me that’s as bad as as wishing I was dead. So, I took them for six to eight weeks, let the tears dry and my brain reset and chuck them in the bin. I know many people who simply can’t do that and wind back up in the mess I described without the anti-depressants and I’m not suggesting for a moment that makes you any less of a person or that you throw them away. I’m simply describing how they worked for me.
I didn’t start writing until I was thirty, well not in earnest anyway. I’ve wrote since I could pick up a pen, but I didn’t know who I was until I hit thirty so never managed to produce anything coherent enough for others eyes to see it before that age. Since then I have managed to avoid dehabilitating depression. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve suffered low mood on a number of occasions, but never anything all consuming and crippling.
I have wept and sobbed for my characters when I wrote them and even after, just thinking about them and whatever predicament they face. I well up whenever I go to a class assembly and see my children centre stage at school. Adverts make me cry. I try never to watch the news…so we won’t go there. Still, the main causation of cathartic tears remains the movies. Even when they’re not even particularly sad.
This fact remains an absolute fascination to my ten year old daughter, she just doesn’t understand why I always cry at our Friday night movie night, which often goes into a Saturday night, too. This is what inspired this post. I think it’s because she fascinates me in the way that she doesn’t understand it. These days I no longer attempt to hold back the tears, I really enjoy the overwhelming emotion passing over me in response to what’s happening on the screen. I even cried at the end of Grease 2 the other week because it reminded me of something I missed. Sometimes it just feels so good to cry. All of the years I attempted to hide my tears when it came to fictional matters was because most people believe it displays their weakness. On the contrary, the ability to cry shows nothing but emotional strength. A good cry every now and then can feel so good, what better way to have your emotions out off the back of something fictional that your brain can let go of once the scene has finished? After all, crying over the real stuff that isn’t going away could leave you broken as it continually attacks. Especially in these times where tragedy and frustration is all around us and all consuming if we allow it to get to us.
The truth of the matter is that I’m very emotional, so I was surprised to receive a comment from a co-worker who told me I didn’t seem the sort to write romance. Then I realised that most of my colleagues only experience the mildly pissed off to absolutely fucking livid side of me. Unfortunately, the consultant psychiatrist has witnessed the other side a number of occasions and had no idea how to handle a sobbing Lucy. So it’s probably for the best to leave the annoyed side of me at the office!
All too often, when we feel low, we try to push away the feelings of despair, keep busy and push the feelings away. Maybe just maybe, we could feel better if we just allowed ourselves to feel something through the eyes of others, be that a fictional character or not. Doing so displays empathy and emotional health. So, if you’re feeling low and need a little ‘pick me up’ might I suggest a really sad movie to rid yourself of the sadness inside? I’d be interested to know if it works for you!
If you’re looking for a book to make you shed a tear or two, then you could give Kissing Katie by moi a go. I certainly shed a few tears whilst I wrote it and used my own experiences with depression to craft the story. Come on, it wouldn’t be a proper post if I didn’t try to sell you something at the end! LOL! Currently it’s on sale at 99 little pennies or cents or available in KU. Links are below the image.
Also, I’ll be giving a signed paperback copy of the book away over the next few weeks, so if you’d like the chance to win it join my group: http://bit.ly/LTsLovlies
I’m the most excited I’ve ever been to announce a long awaited achievement! Falling to Pieces is at long last available in audiobook!
This journey of mine started out quite some time ago when I decided all of my books should be available in audiobook and that I was missing out on possibly, the most superior part of the market.
I am a person that cannot abide people making excuses for not participating in something because they ‘don’t have time.’ I’d say that reading books is actually a responsibility for an author, it’s also essential. Before I found audiobooks and actually decided to give them ago, against my beliefs that audiobooks were a terrible invention and I wouldn’t or couldn’t enjoy a book being spoken at me…I suffered the dreaded words, “I don’t have time to read.” They formed in my brain and mouth, but luckily I managed to keep them inside.
A friend of mine rejoiced them and encouraged me to give them a go. I believed I owed myself a chance to get through more than one book a month if I was lucky. In my defence, and another reason why I get annoyed when people use the excuse of having no time, is because I work a full time job as a paralegal, and trust me it can be extremely stressful, I have two children, a partner, I write and try to every day and I am extremely house proud. This isn’t mentioning the all consuming chronic condition I have which takes an awful lot of time to keep on top of, which is pretty much a life or death minute to minute task!
A few years down the line and I’ll be the first to admit, I absolutely and unoquivically love audiobooks. You know that bereft feeling you get when you arrive at the end of your current read. The tight feeling of agitation which forms in your chest cavity when you finish that last page? That’s how I feel when I hear the man from Audible at the end of a book. That panic has me running to order my next fix. I love audiobooks so much that my reviewer group has dubbed me The Queen of Audio.
So, how the hell could I countinue to walk around without any books in audio format?
I began recording Kissing Katie. I hated it and it took me a number of months to figure out that I should have started with one of my books in first person and the character I feel the most connected to out of all of them. Of course, that’s Teagan Lewis.
I went back to the recording room, which is my dressing room, and started again. It just so happened that at that time I responded to a post in an author group asking if authors planned on putting their books into audio. The guy sent me a private message in response to my comment that it was underway. He tried to disuade me from doing my own narration, by basically tell me I shouldn’t do this as I didn’t have the correct equipment or training and went about explaining how many thousands of dollars he spent on equipment and how highly trained he was. Rude. Not only rude, but he managed to decide all of this without even enquiring after my setup and or training.
Now, I haven’t spent thousands on equipment, but I was happy with the sound and I most definately did my research and by no means selected the cheapest options.
To be blatently honest, I think I’ve listened to such an array of narration styles that I knew exactly where I wanted to head with the book.
The absolute reason I didn’t take to ACX and attempt to secure a royalty share deal is because I knew exactly how I wanted my book to sound. Also, I’m sure there are fantastic narrators out there willing to do royalty share deals, but really, is their equipment going to be vastly better than mine? Are they going to be trained to the hilt? I doubted it. I know my characters inside and out. I have seen each character and scene in those books in my head in full Technicolour. If anyone else performed these books, no matter how brilliant, it wouldn’t be right. My love of audiobooks is the thing that made me realise that I wanted it to be the way I wanted it and to hand this over to someone else would be a mistake. Not only for them, but for me, too.
Okay, so this wise guy had pissed me off, but he did make me think about ways I could improve. I took to a narrators group, one I absolutely fear to tread. I barely ever post on there, because it’s so unfriendly which is unhelpful. I wanted to hire a coach, mostly to check that I wasn’t making a mistake. There were loud shouts about who was brilliant, and lots of tagging etc. One tiny voice, with a laid back approach stood out. I reached out to several people recommended, they all came back to me. But, the tiny voice with the laid back appraoach nagged at me. For a start the other coaches were female and to be honest I’m a very dominant person and I wasn’t sure I’d be able to be coached by a lady. So Meisner Trained Acting Coach and Narrator A.W. Miller, it was. And I’m so glad it was…
Prior to our first lesson, I sent him a clip of what I had done and waited nervously. When we met on Zoom he seemed really excited to be working with an author who wanted to narrate and that I was British. So, awesome :). Because I’d been so nervous I was shocked at how quickly at ease I was. He looked at my set up and agreed that considering how basic it all was, the sound was still good. Also, he informed me I was much further ahead than I thought. Now, y’all might consider he was blowing smoke up my arse and trying to inject some confidence the twatty narrator who was touting for business had attempted to wash from me, but A.W. throughout all of our sessions stood by his comments that I was already better than people taking paid gigs for narration. My theory as to why this could be completely true is that I am so connected and invested to my characters that it was effortless for me to recreate them this way. Also, I knew from thousands of hours listening to books exactly how I wanted The Falling Series to sound.
Teagan has an American accent in the book and I found this to be a struggle. Almost an entire book spoken in a different accent to my own would be a challenge. A.W. professed not to be trained in the art of accents. But, boy, I think he was wrong. He really helped me to see where things were going wrong and helped me see where I could improve in this area. He gave me tips on excercises to help me slip into my American accent. The funniest one being when he identified my American accent was excellent when I said the word, ‘fuck.’ I was hysterically laughing when he said that, and I think he could see by my face there was a story to this. I admitted that in our house the word ‘motherfucker’ is defaulted to an American accent. He found this comical and gave me lists of words to repeat to help me change my mouth shape during narrating these parts.
A.W. picked up on when I was ‘trying to hard.’ I laughed when he likened parts of narration to my military career and said in a German accent, “You vill do this right!” and a little later commented, “Oh, this part is really good, military Lucy must have gone for a smoke.”
Basically, I hung on A.W.’s every valuable word and switched up a lot of software, all of it in fact, to help me in every single way possible. And trust me, I needed all of the help I could get!
As A.W. and I arrived at that last lesson, he listened to my most recent work. I was almost at the end of the book by that point. When he said, lost in the moment of listening to my narrative, “You have such a great English accent.” We both burst out laughing.
I honestly could never have arrived at the point where I finally submitted my eight hours of audio to ACX without A.W.’s help. The best thing I ever did was to hire this man.
I am both terrified and excited to release this book in it’s audio form for the world to hear. I’d say it’s even more terrifying than releasing the book itself. I hope Teagan, the woman inside my mind has been done justice by my voice and that if nothing else, people will enjoy my production.
As always, authors and narrators need reviews to thrive, so if you are reading this, love audiobooks and PNR with spice, get in touch and see if I have any ACX codes to give! All I ask is that you leave an honest review. Better still, head to my Facebook Group, L.T.’s Lovelies where I’ll be giving away UK and USA codes to members :).
I’m planning on starting Falling into You this month. I’ll be much quicker than the epic seven months it took to bring you Falling to Pieces! After all, that’s what learning is all about!
Thanks as always for reading and I hope to hear from you soon!
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October is my most dreaded month of any year. No matter what I do the black dog manages to take a hold of me and keep me within its clutches until after the 19th, which is my birthday! It appears most people have a month like this and unfortunately it seems to be a self-fulling prophecy for the vast majority of us!
Luckily, I’m always over this by Halloween! This is great news for me, being a paranormal romance author who adores the vampires, witches and werewolves, especially the ones contained within the pages of The Falling Series.
It’s been a while since I dedicated my monthly blog to shameless self-promotion, but here I am doing it anyway! I have a lot going on with The Falling Series this month. I enjoyed writing contemporary romance, in fact I have another contemporary having a rest on my hard drive and I’m hoping to bring it to life and into the hands of readers in 2021. That said, nothing compares to the joy and thrill I get from writing PNR…
I have been involved in the Hall O’ Scream Book Fair which is being hosted by author, Kristy Nicolle. The fair features books that would fit with the Halloween theme, so even if you’ve read mine or they never took your fancy, I hope you’ll be able to find something you’ll love! Better news…all the books are either free or discounted, including mine! The fair is running from today until 31st October 2020, so if you’re checking out the blog after this date, you’ve missed out :(!
When Teagan Lewis moves from rural Montana to the bright lights of London with her maker Thomas, she expects to live as harmoniously as she has for the last one hundred-fifty years.Teagan didn’t know she had a heart or soul until she met Marc Romano. However, it quickly becomes clear that Marc isn’t what he seems. All the signs that he isn’t human were there from the beginning, but she chose to ignore them…to her peril.Can she simply walk away from this mesmerising stranger? Or should she risk her immortality to be with the man she has fallen in love with?
Marc Romano disappeared without a trace into the darkness. His lover became overwhelmed with grief in her loss. But her grief takes on a much more murderous form than most, for Teagan Lewis is a vampire.
Now her heartache is driving her further from the woman she once was, and she realises she must snap out of her monstrous habits and discover the way back to her old self. But how?
Ending their trip around Europe, Teagan and her friend Alex head back to New York. Teagan has the full intention of carrying out a dangerous plan; not just physically dangerous, but emotionally as well.
How will she be able to resist the irresistible? And what of the new rival, Ivan Lenin? He threatens her life and the lives of everyone she loves. The only people who can help her are her sworn enemy and an ancient stranger. Will they assist her? How will Teagan Lewis face the demons of her past and try to find happiness? Will she stay and fight or will she run from the things she must face in order to finally be at peace?
Vampires, Bartholomew and Teagan have lived blissfully for eighteen years. That’s what Teagan would have you believe anyway. Two weeks before their wedding Bartholomew goes missing whilst attending to Assembly business. In Teagan’s bid to track him down she finds herself before a powerful witch. A witch who bears secrets from Teagan’s and Bartholomew’s past. These revelations set Teagan on a course towards physical and emotional disaster. Can Teagan overcome her discoveries and continue her life with Bartholomew? Or will she have no alternative but to walk away from the man she loves?
I need to start out by explaining how absolutely disappointed I am. You are completely fucking useless. I often wonder how much you weigh and figure the burden of having to carry you around. You had one fucking job and you failed.
This letter is coming to you exactly two years since I was informed you decided to quit your job, with little notice and no regard for the human being you had inhabited for thirty-six years. How very selfish of you.
The 9th October 2018 is a day I’ll never forget, your inaction won’t allow for it.
I figure you died in late August or September 2018, because I lost so much weight out of nowhere, felt knackered beyond belief and had a persistent stomach ache. I’d just started a new job and my colleagues tried to reassure me it was a simple case of stress. It’s a shame you’re not closer to my brain, because then you’d know that I am a constant ball of stress, always have been. So, I knew deep down it wasn’t the reason for these symptoms. Luckily, or unluckily, whichever way you want to view it, I was already seeing an Endocrinologist because of your random little outbursts every now and then. You really are a truculent little bastard.
At the end of September 2018 I sat in the endo’s office and explained what was happening. He chastised me for not going to my GP. He feverishly cried out that this medical problem would be nothing to do with him. He hit me with a barrage of health questions, “When did you start smoking?”
“When I was about eleven or twelve.”
“I didn’t think you were allowed to smoke at that age.”
“In my life there’s been a lot of things I’m not allowed to do, alas I have done them.”
To that end, he ordered a chest X-ray and a load of bloods which pointed to the fact he thought I had the big ‘C.’ But, I knew it wasn’t that.
On 9th October, I sat in my office at work and literally felt as though I may die. I was wiped out, exhausted and my stomach ached to the point I wanted to rip it out. I called the GP, because the endocrinologist had washed his hands of this ailment which has nothing to do with him. There were no results. They’d gone back to Dr Not My Job.
Now I really would have to sneak in through the back door on this one, I’d hate to bother a Doctor when he said I should have gone to the GP. I’d have to ask a secretary, whatever. I called them and they said he’d ring me back. No fucking backdoor then. He was going to be mad I was making him do the GP’s job again. I figured I’d frequent the smoking shed at work because I’d be waiting for Dr Not My Job for quite some time. I’d possibly even be dead by then.
Five minutes later I arrived back to my desk to five missed calls and a frantic voicemail from Dr Not My Job. Fuck. My already aching stomach felt like it suddenly had a few dozen bricks dumped into it and quickly plummeted into my boots. I called back straight away, barely being able to speak his name due to all consuming fear of what he was about to tell me.
“Are you okay? How are you feeling?”
This was not good.
“Erm, tired and I have a stomach ache.”
“Lucy, you have diabetes.” His voice was strangled as though he was having to deliver the news to his nearest and dearest, not a patient he’d met three times at the outset. This distressed me further, because boy did he sound worried. He ordered me to the hospital right that minute.
I stood there, I had been sitting when I rang him back, but I must have leapt off the chair at some point but I don’t remember when. After I hung up, I must have screamed or done something because I had another doctor in my office, the psychiatrist I work with. That’s when I heard the words for the first time, I heard them many times after and each time they have left a bad fucking taste in my mouth. “At least it’s not cancer.”
Now, don’t get me wrong, in no way am I attempting to undermine cancer. It is a horrible, horrible disease. But, can you ever imagine telling someone who has just found out they have a life-long disease with more associated complexities than branches of a thousand year old oak tree that at least it’s not something completely unconnected? Imagine if someone told me they had cancer and my hand flew to my chest and I exulted, “Thank God it’s not type 1 diabetes!” I figure that would go down like a fucking lead balloon and my name would be dragged through the mud. Yet, everyone found it perfectly acceptable to say it to me. This was the first thing to make me angry after you packed up, bastard. Do you know what anger does to my blood sugar? I hate you.
I digress. I arrived at the hospital (after my mother said, “At least it’s not cancer,” as I was sobbing on the way to the hospital and my boyfriend hung up on me without letting me tell him I was actually dying.) There waiting was no less than a junior doctor, a trainee doctor and two diabetic nurses. If I wasn’t shitting myself before, I was at that point. I was ushered into an office, had my finger pricked my blood sugar was 28 and I had ketones of 2.9 (this is m/mnol.) Even Dr Not My Job had called into the consultation and was having everything relayed to him over the phone.
Now, it took me quite some time to figure out why there was such a fuss, surely people are diagnosed with type 1 diabetes without quite so much fanfare? Right? Ahh, but I’m quite sure they didn’t go to a whole endocrinology consultant who is a diabetic specialist, describe the symptoms of diabetes and were subsequently told to fuck off in the politest of ways, did they? I’m quite sure Dr Not My Job was clutching his GMC number in his cold, terrified, little hands for quite some time after that. In someway it’s really nice to know that at least one person was really fucking glad I didn’t die of DKA, even if it was for less than honourable reasons. The day after my diagnosis I had to go back to the hospital and he came to see me and said he’s never in his career seen a person go from reactive hypoglycaemia (that’s when you were being a little bitch) to type 1. Not ever. So, I’ll add medical fucking mystery to my list of shit I’ve done then, shall I?
In all fairness, people are vindictive and want someone to blame for everything that happens to them. I’m usually no exception to this. That said, I honestly for the life of me didn’t know what the fuck was wrong. My brother has lived without his turncoat, mother-fucker of a pancreas for years. I should have known you’d fucked off on a world cruise never to return. But, I didn’t think of it once and to be honest I thought I was too old. Also, I’ve always been really thirsty…especially for beverages of the fermented grape variety. If I, the Queen of know-it-all, didn’t know, I wouldn’t expect anyone else to either.
So then, there I was with all the gear and no idea. I cried and cried for a week solid. This wasn’t helped by the little bitch in the pharmacy in my doctors surgery who refused to give me all the stuff I needed, including my insulin, because I needed a medical exemption certificate which takes four to six weeks to arrive. So I’ll just go home and die then shall I, twat features? I got her to hand it all over in the end but that wasn’t before she was so rude to me in front of lots of people and truth be told, I just couldn’t hack anything else.
I was a wreck. I wanted you back. I just wanted you to do what you were meant to do and stop pissing around. But, I knew you weren’t ever coming back.
I went through the stages of grief I can only see now.
Anger was most definitely the first, and it rears its ugly head time and time again. It’s usually other people and how I feel about having you gone which causes it. It can be a colleague sending another colleague a ‘get well soon’ card or a bouquet of flowers when something tragic has happened and how in my time of lying at rock bottom I didn’t get a thing, not even a teaspoons worth of sympathy. It’s clear to me no-one understands even for a nano second what I went through and how dark those initial days, weeks and months were for me. I am a person who emotionally vomits. I can’t keep it inside. It’s obvious I feel really sorry for myself and therefore no-one else feels the need to. It’s only diabetes. I can’t help thinking that maybe if people showed a bit of empathy then perhaps I wouldn’t, still to this day, feel so angry that you left me. Alas, here we are.
Denial. Well, I came to terms with the fact that you had gone and were never to return to your fully fucking functioning self. I never woke up and thought, this is bullshit, it’ll just spring back to life and laugh, saying, “Fooled you, sucker!” No, my denial was much more dangerous than that. I’d treat myself to days of pretending I didn’t have type 1 diabetes. I wouldn’t test my blood sugar or take insulin. I didn’t get over this until April 2020, when during the COVID-19 lockdown, I went into DKA with a ketone level of 8. That was half a day of not taking insulin. Granted, I did lie on the sofa eating a packet of biscuits. However, when the stark realisation a packet of biscuits can and will kill you…well, it’s a cruel world. Funny, I only realised something was wrong when I couldn’t finish my cigarette because my respiratory system was shutting down. I’ve never done this since, and unless I’m feeling suicidal, I’m not likely to either. It was fucking horrible.
Depression. I lived most of my teens and twenties with crippling depression. In comparison to that, I guess this is nothing. It’s there, but in a different form. I can’t sit still, can’t stop to think about anything other than about the next most pressing task on the list. I don’t even really like myself or have a compliment to give to myself like I used to. I never feel attractive anymore. Especially not when I see what not having you did to my teeth. I mean, what the hell is that all about? Happiness comes in fleeting moments rather than being a state of mind. You know what? I just feel broken and damaged and I’m not sure that will ever change.
I dodged the bargaining. I know there was nothing I could have done differently to have kept you going. Or maybe I’m still in the stages of grief and this will come later? Who the fuck knows? Not me.
Maybe there’s a grain of truth in what I said because I haven’t reached the acceptance part yet. I mean, I accept you’re gone and you’re never coming back. I accept I will have to do your job myself. I accept I have to play a constant game of chess and be on top of everything lest become ill very quickly. I accept I’ll have a lifetime of insulin and blood monitoring. I accept the overwhelming feelings of envy when I watch someone put food in their mouth without having to make a ton of decisions before they do it. I accept all of that, but I can’t accept and embrace this. I can’t feel like some people feel about how type 1 changed their lives for the better, and some people really do feel like that. I’m not one of them.
I hope next year, when I write my annual letter to you, I might feel a bit better? But, for now…
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My life has been a series of, “You can’t.” So, whilst I have thrust my chin out and made a statement about something I planned on doing with my life others have been there to either outright laugh in my face and/or smile sweetly at me in the way you do when you feel someone is slightly demented and you pity them immensely. Neither is kind to ones ego or positivity.
For me, these have been the things that have given me the dreaded feeling of Imposter Syndrome in my life, and of course becoming an author was no different at all.
I want you to think back over the aspirations you have told others and you’ve felt they have somehow made you feel as though it was too bigger goal for you to achieve. Here are mine:
I’m going to join the Air Force.
They laughed. They being most of the people who knew me, because let’s face it my level of discipline aged seventeen was basically zero. They have a way of creating that part of you, though. Well, that and my parents sold my bed the day I walked through RAF Halton’s gates and absolutely refused to let me come home. It wasn’t until I’d been serving for four years that my ‘imposter syndrome’ finally vanished. How and why? I finally felt as though I was worthy of being there and added something. In truth, that had most likely been happening for a long time before then, I just didn’t feel it.
I want to work in VIP.
They laughed. Mostly because despite serving for quite some years before I chose this path to walk along for my career I had always been quite the non-conformist. My speciality in life has been to question and push boundaries as far as possible. This attitude does not smack of a person who works in VIP in the military. Don’t get me wrong, it took me the full stretch of my career to make it, but I still duped my way into the job I wanted. Did I feel like an imposter? The entire time. But, I loved it and it was a great way to end my career and it’s that time I look back fondly on. It would have been different had I ended up with a different family, but they all took me in their stride…I think!
I want to study law at degree level.
Actually, no-one laughed. Not to my face anyway, and I’m not sure behind my back either. Well, except my barrister friend who read my first essay and she wasn’t laughing to be mean, but she saw I wrote like a novelist rather than a budding legal mind! The only person who laughed at me for even attempting this difficult challenge was myself. I took a two year sabbatical (which turned to three because it took a year to reset my brain afterward) from creative writing in order to achieve what I always wanted my entire life and never thought I would get…to wear a cap and gown and collect a scroll tied up with a cute ribbon. It was a lot of work for that one tiny moment of complete gratification. Even when I got my grade, with honours, I didn’t believe it. When I collected the scroll in the aforementioned outfit, wearing my prized unicorn shoes, which everyone stared at…the imposter syndrome vanished finally. It’s funny really, because in my professional division of the law, even when I really had no idea of what I was doing, I felt a strange confidence in my practices, so why simply proving I could do it on several pieces of paper terrified me so much, I’ll never know…
I’m going to be an author.
This is one that will never go away, I don’t think. I duped people on Facebook when I asked for their experiences of Imposter Syndrome by telling them I was going to explain how I overcome it in this blog post. I lied.
This is not to be mistaken as a complete lie, because I have overcome it lots of times, but it returns like that old cranky and nasty friend who tracks you down from time to time and then disappears again when you fail to gratify them with the lack of positivity that fuels them. You’d think after five published novels and at least another three on my hard drive, I’d believe, right? You are what you do, or have done, after all? People read your book, the figures are there and in some cases the reviews as well. Still, that sense of nagging doubt and crippling fear returns at the most inopportune times. Why? Because with each new title released, the fear you will finally be discovered as the imposter you are, returns.
When I picked up two publishing contracts, I felt I did get caught out because those two books did nothing. Nothing. I put that little niggle to bed when the publishing house closed and I self-published those titles and they did much better in terms of sales. The thing about this industry is you’re always learning and meeting new people, people who have the same stories to tell as I do. You pretty much have to push your small house published book as though you’re an indie to make it. Moral of the story? You may as well do it yourself.
These are mere examples of the times I’ve suffered with Imposter Syndrome. There have been many. Imposter Syndrome is proven to be something which afflicts perfectionists and people who feel they need to ‘achieve’ in order to be loved. Those are two traits I absolutely possess, to the point where people believe I’m much older than I am at times. Not because I’m fucking exhausted and look like a knackered old hag (both of which I often do.) But, so I’m informed, because I have crammed so much into my thirty-eight years of life.
So, whilst I fully admit the Imposter Syndrome rears its ugly head, I have figured out a few strategies to help overcome them. This is a strategy which can be employed for any negative notions or anything that should be challenged within your mindset; take your thoughts to court. It is exactly what it says it is. For example:I am not a real author. When this book releases I will be figured out for the fraud I really am.
Imagine now, this statement I have made, this feeling of crippling self doubt is to be brought before a court and judgement would be made, either by a judge or even a jury of your peers. Your statement must be proved in the same way as any other act or statement would be in court.
What is the evidence to support this claim? What is the counter evidence?
It may be useful for the first few occasions to write down your evidence on a piece of paper. It may look something like this depending on your situation:
Supporting evidence (The reasons why you feel it’s true:)
I have very few reviews on my book.
I have never had a bestseller.
My sales are inconsistent.
I have to work another job and fit in writing around that.
I don’t make any money.
Counter Evidence (Evidence to the contrary of your feelings:)
I’m dedicated to writing.
I love writing.
I don’t sell as many books as I would like, but I still have readers.
X messaged me and told me how much they loved my book and why.
I got a great review.
I re-read a title from my backlist and surprised myself with how good it was.
I dedicated so many hours to writing the stories I wanted to read.
I believe in my work.
I have written and published x amount of books.
No matter what, the evidence, providing you have work out there is overwhelming. It would be a waste of time to have written the evidence list and not look into what is causing your doubts. If you do this and try to tackle where the issues lie, I promise you that upon each repeat of the exercise the list will get smaller. I mean, being on a bestseller list will likely remain on my ‘evidence list’ forever, but honestly…it’s hardly the be all and end all, is it?
Your review of your argument may look like this:
I have very few reviews on my book. (How have I tried to secure readers reviews? Have I asked readers on my newsletter/ Facebook fan page/ Instagram/ review pages I follow?) No? Reach out it’s worth a shot. In all honesty I find it so difficult to get reviews positive or negative to the point I had a work colleague approach me, grab hold of my arm and enthusiastically inform me she had read every book I wrote and absolutely adored each word I’d written. She gushed to the point of embarrassment (for me.) When I asked her if she left reviews, she admitted she hadn’t, but promised to. That was about a year ago…still waiting.
I have never had a bestseller. (It’s not the end of the world. There are many authors who I love and respect that don’t possess this accolade…Maybe one day.) I’d like to add that one of the people who contacted me on Facebook to say she suffers with Imposter Syndrome is a bestselling author, so the feelings don’t go away then either. I recently read Write Naked by Jennifer Probst who explains how difficult post bestseller writing actually is on you. How much of a failure you feel if your next title doesn’t make in onto the NYT list. On reflection, I can absolutely see how that would be much more harmful than if you never had a bestseller in the first place! The book was fantastic if you’re into writing craft books, by the way.
My sales are inconsistent. (Look into my marketing strategy. What courses can I do that could help me achieve more sales at a consistent rate?) If you’re self-published, I urge you to surf through your genre. How does your book cover, blurb and landing page stand up against those at the top of your category. It’s outstanding the difference a few minor tweaks can make. Trust me, I turned a non-starter into my best selling title by making a few minor adjustments.
I have to work another job and fit in writing around that. (There are bestselling authors out there who still have to work other jobs to make ends meet. Perhaps, if I was less of a snappy dresser, designer shoe and handbag lover I could survive on the income?) LOL. okay, maybe that’s too much of a stretch. But, remember only the top two percent of authors earn enough to live off what they make from writing and even then lots of that comes from other sources such as public speaking engagements.
Okay, so all in all, I want to tell you something, if you actually got as far as to finish this blog post. If you wrote a book, bled onto that page, placed your heart and soul into the pages. Especially if you then continued to spill your guts and loved every moment of hammering the keys. You ARE a writer.
If you’re like me and put your hard earned money into your writing, whether that’s attending conferences, paying for editors…whatever, you catch my drift. Or, if, also like me, you worked hard submitting and submitting despite of the soul destroying rejection and carried on anyway until your work was in the public domain by whichever route. You ARE an author.
Another little secret…people will diss your book, this will happen. People will adore your book, also extremely likely to happen…
I highly doubt anyone will EVER call you out as an imposter…just sayin’.
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Life is so very busy for the vast majority of us. I look at my completed schedule some weeks and honestly wonder exactly how I fitted everything in. Some weeks I look at an uncompleted schedule and wonder where things went so very wrong.
I have very high expectations of myself and place myself under enormous pressure to perform. Last week my daughter and I sat down to a Twilight movie marathon, I’ve watched these films plenty of times, so I brought my laptop along and worked on a novella I’m writing.
Daughter: Mom, are you working?
Me: No, I’m writing. I’m on leave from work today.
Daughter: *Eye roll* That IS working, Mom.
I’ve never treated my writing as a hobby, it is a job to me. Not just the writing, but being an author in general, there are aspects of it which are more laborious for me. Tasks that make it feel more like a job than a mere hobby. Of course, technically I don’t have to write. It doesn’t put food on my table or a roof over my head by any stretch of the imagination. Still, I place enormous pressure on myself to complete a weekly word count. My writing is a job, because even if I don’t want to do it, I still still down and tap the keys regardless. Thanks to Lily for reminding me of how much work I put into creating, whether that’s writing or narrating.
However, this is not the point of this blog. The message I’m here to give you is, sometimes you have to say ‘fuck it’ and throw the schedule out of the window. And a few weekends ago I did just that. I did something I used to really enjoy, but I simply haven’t made any time for since I flung myself back into this crazy world of creating fiction after a few years out of the game. I went fishing! Not just on one day, but Saturday and Sunday!
Fishing was first introduced to me almost four years ago when I met my partner, Nick. I went to watch one day and was oddly fascinated by the entire process, the sense of calm all around you and all of that thinking time you’re afforded by simply watching a float, hoping it will soon disappear beneath the waterline and you’ll have a freaking monster on the end.
Though, in my case, it’s usually something smaller than the stock of my small home aquarium! But, sometimes it’s not. You can have a good guess by how hard it tugs, but you’re not always right. It’s a surprise!
Now, I’m quite a girly, girl…skirts, heels, make-up and all that jazz. So, when I say I enjoy angling, I’m often met with great surprise. It was a shock to me as well, because before I began this journey the notion of touching a fish or a maggot would have actually made me vomit! It really is funny how you can change you own mind!
I digress. On the Saturday I went along with my partner to give it a go. I hadn’t been for such a long time I didn’t expect much success. I actually wasn’t even ready for my first catch, I dipped my line and felt that long missed tug before I even managed to ship the pole out into the lake. The ensuing few hours continued with a muchness. With my confidence fully restored I confidently put my name down for a match the following day.
Now, I loved pleasure fishing all of the times I went. Well, except for those days when I caught bugger all, which was often toward the end, hence the most likely reason for packing away my gear and exclaiming, “Fuck that shit! I ain’t sitting freezing my tits off for fuck all again.” But, a match always terrified me. Look, if I was a bloke I’d probably be okay with it, but I was a female living in a mans world for a very long time and I didn’t much enjoy that either. In fact I’d say it aggravated my non-conformist personality and brought it kicking and screaming to the forefront of my being. If you want to know what oppression looks like, try being a female in the military and you’ll experience being a second class citizen. You won’t enjoy it, and if you’re as strong willed as I am, you won’t accept it either. This is exactly why my career was over before it ever began. I wouldn’t change a thing. In my current career I rule by fear, sarcasm and the complete knowledge that I’m one of the best in my field. That way, people put up with my bullshit and general abruptness. So, I was terrified about how I’d be taken.
On the day, there was another women there which settled my nerves a little. She was lovely and chatty to me, too, which really helped. Also, while I was sat there I heard a conversation about how nice it was to see women fishing, though they emphasised how much they would hate their wives doing it because of the extra bait they’d have to buy, which made me laugh to myself.
Unfortunately, I pulled the worst peg EVER out of the bag! Peg 15 sits by a little bridge, meaning if your catch decides to fuck off underneath it, you’re essentially buggered!
At one point I had one on, obviously a monster, which dragged me into the reeds and decided to spit my hook out and leave it in there. Could I free it? Could I hell as like. Luckily the owner come to my rescue…I had clearly loosened it by that point LOL!
It came to the weigh in. I had enjoyed the day so much, listening to my audio book, that I honestly wasn’t bothered about the result. I thought I had around 15lbs in my net and my partner weighed in at 17lb ish and I assured him I had caught less. My net were pulled and the fish were loaded into the weighing net, at which point my partners face paled somewhat and he turned to me and said, “I thought you hadn’t caught that much?”
It turns out I caught 22lbs ish! I was wholly ‘unsportswomanlike’ in my reaction, bouncing up the bank exclaiming, “Loser!” What? I couldn’t help it!
Unfortunately, in a way this has made me not want to lose my winning streak. By winning streak I mean beating my partner because overall I came second to last. So, will I be partaking this Sunday? Probably not, but not because I don’t want to spoil my streak and more to do with the fact that it’s probably going to fucking piss it down…
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